A shock to the system.

I have always been one to run from conflict.Conflict of any type let alone conflict involving blood letting. I would never choose a book if the hero or heroine were likely to suffer anything more than a hang nail.Yet out of my head has spilled a rather gory tale,quite wallowing in blood and other nasty stuff.I have only a few more pages to write and then the decision what to do with it? I do tend to be a meglamaniac but with underlying self doubt.However as I have spent this time with my heroine I found myself crying much of the time and wishing she could change,but she wouldn't.
So to my mind if she has affected me this much perhaps the story has merit.I guess I will stop wasting time blogging about it and get it finished then.